#16

today i realized just how short a time they stay so little. holding my angel in my arms as she slept, i started crying, i mostly blame my hormonal imbalances at this time of the month, but i was truly sad that she is going to be walking on her own in a few weeks, and eventually running off to get married years down the road. oh god, i am a mess, haha, but i have enjoyed my little sprout in all her stages, but i think right now has been the prettiest stage because she interacts at all times <3

she feels a lot better today. it was cold out, and i wanted to take her for a walk, but decided to hit the mall instead of the sidewalk :3 we went with daddy and had a lovely time. we shared a pretzel, and daddy had a coffee and kolache <3 daddy got an interview for mcafee tomorrow, and we have our fingers crossed ^_^ this job will secure us very well and we will in the long run be able to move out, pay things off, save a lot, and buy our own place in a couple of years :3 i'm very excited!

i cannot express how chopin is the soundtrack to my life. this man rips my heart out, plucks the heartstrings beautifully, shoves it back in my chest, and sews it shut with his melodies. omg, it's so beautiful and dismal and hopeless. reminds me a lot about the past, i don't know why, especially his nocturnes. so, so pretty <3 i am excited about anaïs learning an instrument, hopefully she likes them like her daddy, and she can play chopin for me on piano. i think i would die the day that happened. it will, i just know it.